Showing posts with label Influence Conference. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Influence Conference. Show all posts

Thursday, October 18, 2012

not your typical artist

(stolen from Annie's instagram)

Have you ever noticed how lies from the enemy hold us back from fully, passionately following after Jesus?

Have you ever noticed that believing those lies isolate us from others? 

That believing those lies is like putting back on the shackles we've been freed from? 

Maybe that's just me. I've been letting myself buy into some lies and this entire past week, God has gotten my attention. Even before Influence, the messages in chapel and the content of my quiet time started to break away my strong grip on these lies. 

At Influence, the first session I attended was about being an artist with Emily Freeman. Now, I would never consider myself an artist and sometimes, with this blog, I struggle because of just that. I don't really have a strong writing style. I'm not funny or intellectual or poetic. I just have my story, and sometimes I feel like it's not enough. 

So Emily starts speaking and immediately I am encouraged and affirmed by the Holy Spirit and convicted of believing lies. One of the very first statements she made struck such a chord in my heart.

"An artist is a person who is brave enough to move towards what makes her come alive."

By Emily's definition, I don't have to be able to compose lovely melodies or dance gracefully or write poetically... if those aren't the passions that God has placed in me. 

Maybe it is administration, organization and checklists that make my soul sing. Maybe it's holding a sobbing student in my office as she sorts through hurt. Maybe it is making cupcakes for someone when I have no idea what else to do. Of course those things don't sound like art. But then Emily said this-

"A God who turns ashes to beauty can turn lists into lyrics, a program into poetry, and management to music." 

And that might have been when I wondered why the heck I hadn't brought tissues with me because the tears just started flowing. 

Can God really take things that are mundane or seem insignificant and use them for His glory? Yes. 



"being small and ordinary isn't a flaw. It's actually a prerequisite."

And of course I knew this! It's echoed all throughout scriptures in the stories of Moses, David, Rahab, Ruth, every single disciple and so many more. But how powerful is it to realize that the Creator of all things can work through us more powerfully when we are ordinary and humble? 

Our God is creative. He began with an act of creation- full of depth and purpose and beauty. We were made in His image and are to be imitators of Christ. We are God's poema, His creation, His masterpiece (eph 2:10), and I think that God values creativity and art, especially as described above. That understanding of who God is and who I am in Him is enough to drop those chains of insecurity, fear and doubt. Because my God creates, loves and wins. 

"What could be more dangerous to the enemy than to be fully awake to the Creator?" 


Right now, I'm taking some steps to pray over and really seek out what it is that makes me come alive. Emily had some great suggestions in her session. Whenever the audio becomes available I highly recommend that whoever missed the session listens to it!

Was anyone else in this session? I would love to hear how God spoke to you through it.

Tuesday, October 16, 2012

A Mess

... this basically describes me right now. There is the very literal mess that my luggage has made in the middle of my floor. (and I currently feel no motivation to take care of)


...the mess my mind is after an all nighter, studying for two intensive midterms today. I got home around 10 pm Monday evening from Indianapolis and Chicago and had two midterms Tuesday. 


...and the mess that my heart is in, after soaking up the Influence Conference this weekend and spending some extended time with L, Annie and Erin

I feel as if I've taken all of these good things I learned, noting how great they were when I received them, and have shoved down into an oversized purse to sort through and examine later (kinda like what I did with those snazzy business cards). 

So I have all of these nuggets of wisdom, moments of conviction, words of deeply needed affirmation, and a very real sense of community... but none of it is really organized in my heart and mind. 

I definitely want to share what I learned and experienced with y'all but it may take some time to process it all out. That said, I am hitting the ground running getting back on track with classes and work so it may not be right away :)

Until then, here are some of my favorite moments from the weekend!

meeting these girls face to face after getting to know them and praying for them for months!
(stole from Annie's instagram)

having an adjoining room with Kerrie - she's my fave!
(and Alli, Lisa and Julie!)
(stolen from Annie's instagram)

Stripes Party
(stolen from Kerrie's instagram!)

Taking Monday to explore Chicago before flying home

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